Sigh

Well, after months and months, my divorce is settled. I signed the papers today. They still need his signature and then have to go through the court, but it shouldn't take long now. It has been such a difficult few years, it is sometimes hard for me to really look at it all. I called my pals tonight to go to dinner, but it just didn't work out. It was pretty short notice after all. But tonight I find that I am sad. I wonder if I will be able to get that close with anyone again. I wonder if anyone is up for the challenge of me. Guess you can tell that I have been talking with estranged one. That is pretty much how I feel after I talk with him. I really don't do well with the half empty version of life. So after some tears and half a box of Puff later, I am wondering if I will be able to breathe tonight when I sleep! Well enough of that, my keyboard is getting soggy!

I worked a bit this morning, and then after the lawyer and arguement with the soon to be ex, went out for some retail therapy. My fave Steinmart is closing, so I got some jeans for $25 and then I went to Hancocks and I got some supplies I need for the Amy Butler purses I have waiting in the wings. I got the free patterns and they are awesome!!! So I can't wait for the next sewing day...Doug I hope you won't be feeling well in early March when I am on Spring Break! Or who knows, we made need a Sunday adventure in Buford at the Kraft Haus pretty soon!

School is all about OB and Peds. I got to see a 2 hours old baby on Friday! So cute!!!! Especially since I don't have to keep her!!!! If you know me, you know I love other people's kids quite a bit! And I have a research class. I am in the minority, but I really like research. And it is good to be studying again. Yea, I know.... My clinical supervisor is awesome..THANK GOD! It makes all the difference!

So, I am off to check my emails again and see what is shakin on facebook. I feel better just typing all of this. Guess this virtual therapy does work huh?